I Defeated the Demon

I have been plagued with reoccurring nightmares for years.  The nightmares are rooted in childhood traumas that caused me to develop PTSD and Major Depressive Disorder.

I dream that one of my abusers returns to victimize me again.  I try to call for help or to defend myself, but my attempts to stop the abuse fail.  The dreams may be slightly different, but the endings were always the same.  I become a victim again.

I spent years trying to hide from the trauma.  I tried to suppress the memories.  However, the past always returned and created havoc in the present.

For the last two years, I have been seeing an excellent therapist.  He helped me to be able to talk about what happened and taught me how to overcome my past.

The other night I had that same reoccurring nightmare, but this time it was different.  The abuser walked into my house, but I was no longer afraid.  I went up to him and told him to get out and never return.  I yelled at him and told him I would exposes him to the world.  I was going to tell everyone what he had done.  I will no longer keep his secret.

Eventually, the abuser left my house.  He was angry, but for the first time I saw fear in his eyes.  I finally defeated my demon.

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