Hiding From Dismal Days

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The weather has been dismal for a few days now.

The sky is a dull grey color, which strangely resembles cigarette ashes.

There is daylight, but there is no sun to be seen.

The rain and the heat mixes to create an oppressive humidity in the air.

I look out the window, but my view is distorted by raindrops.

My mood is impacted by the dismal day.

My emotional state is gloomy.

I have weather induced doldrums.

I want to hibernate until the sun returns.

If anyone needs me, I will be hiding under the covers.

Jails Doubling as Hospitals

After the recession, Alabama struggled with the budget.  A plan to cut expenses was needed, so the legislators decided to cut funding to the Department of Mental Health by 50% over a 5 year period.

Hospitals were closed and the community resources that remained were stretched way beyond capacity.  People needing treatment would have to wait for 3 or 4 months, by then a minor problem could easily become a crisis situation.

People in need of mental health treatment didn’t just disappear, so what happened to them?  When faced with a crisis, some of them ended up in jail.  I was reading an article (WHNT.com) that stated 30% of the population in the Huntsville jail are there for mental health reasons.

The legislators are starting to notice the result of their decision years ago.  It cost a lot more money to house someone in jail then it does to treat them in the community or to care for them in a hospital setting.

A committee has been formed to discuss the current problem.  The legislators are concerned, not because of the amount of people whose lives have been ruined by the lack of treatment.  They are concerned, because it is costing them money.

 

Living With Depression

When you are suffering from a major depressive episode:

  • Your body feels weighted down.  Even simple tasks, like getting dressed, take an enormous effert.
  • Everything in life seems pointless.  Each day is just a drudgery.
  • There is an overwhelming exhaustion that cannot be cured, no matter how much you sleep you are still tired.
  • You try to remember this is only a relapse.  You try to maintain hope, because without it there would be no reason to live.
  • You want to cry out for help, but that would take to much energy.  Instead, you just curl up on the bed and suffer in silence.

Depression

I suffer with Major Depression.  It’s not something I like to talk about, but it does have a huge impact on my life.

Depressive episodes can happen without any warning.  My life can be going along fine, but out of nowhere a black cloud descends on me.

The cloud covers me and it feels like I am chocking.  I cannot see the good in life, because the cloud blocks out all light.

I have suffered with depression for years.  However, most people don’t know about it.  I feel embarrassed by it, even though I know it’s not my fault and there is nothing I can do to stop it.

I know I am not alone.  A lot of people have Major Depression.

If you also suffer with Major Depression, know that you are not alone either.

 

Prayer vs Meditation

A prayer invokes the power of an outside force and it can be offered to a supreme being or to the universe in general.  The person praying may be asking for something or expressing concern or may just be trying to communicate with a higher power.

 

Meditation involves focusing on one thing, such as breathing, a mantra, sounds, or anything else that the person desires.  In meditation the goal is to silent the mind and relax the body.  There is no attempt to communicate with an outside power.

 

Both Prayer and meditation have benefits.  They can relax the body and promote a feeling of calmness.  In today’s hectic world this could have a positive impact on your life.